My Meditation in The Night.. Friday Night

- Thursday, November 10th 2011- at 22.18 p.m

i don't know how i write this.. 
i don't know how my feel was be jumping right about now..
Like one million butterfly in my stomach..
Is not sadness, is not tears..
I just, do meditate..


and when my brain was be full with so much question..
'Why?' why I do this..
'How?' how I realize this?
'When?' when i'll begin this ?
'What?' what I wanna change???

Really, it is not a beautiful notes. Eventhought you think it was a note. But, just trust me, is absolute not! This is not just note... 

 And when my brain was be full with so much question ..
It's just make one big question..
"SHOULD I CHANGE MY SELF??"
And everyone must be say 'YES!'
     "Could I??"
And everyone must be say 'Of course, nothin' impossible in this world..!'

NO, I don't think so.
It's mistake. false! Is not true..!

I wanna cry.
but i don't know what the thing that make me cry like this.
oh my...
The thing is of course ME!! I cry because of myself..
My heart like be slice, be distroid..
And how what I feel never can be understanding . with all of one, and one of all.. 

:----)